Please put me to work! I dont want to sit in the empty apartment anymore, unable to spend anymore money to make the place looked lived in and unable to go anywhere because I dont really have the money to do that either. There's only so much reading and internet surfing you can do. I want to throw myself at the job. I really dont want to think about anything but it.
I feel like I fucked up and I cant fix it but then again Im not sure what I could have done different. If someone has figured out a way to alter or get rid of certain feelings let me know so that in the future I can use it to unbotch my life.